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Conformity. This post is like all the others. — March 19, 2012

Conformity. This post is like all the others.


People like to follow a crowd.  We talk a good talk about wanting to be indiviual, to pursue originality and to “be different.”  Yet, there are many times where we never want to be the first to do anything.

I found it especially hard as a teenager to be anything different.  Even as I tried to follow what everyone else was doing I was never quite the same.  My physical difference was always apparent anytime I wore a skirt.  Immediately set apart from the crowd.

I remember when platform shoes came back into style.  Most of my friends had gotten this pair from a shoestore in Kingswood (England).  I had desperately wanted these black lace up shoes.  Eventually, after almost everyone else had them, my parents took me to get those shoes.  I was so excited to go and get them.  Could barely contain my excitement.  When we got to the store though, they didn’t have my size in the lace up ones.  There was a pair very similar but instead of lace up they had a zipper top.  Definitely not as cool.

My mom convinced me that I should get the zipper ones as they were similar to my friends but were different than everyone else’s shoes, so I could be different and special.  To her this was a good thing.  To me, the only thing I wanted to do was fit in.  However, since I really wanted to get a pair of these platforms and I was finally allowed to and they didn’t have my size in the lace up ones, I got them.

Pretty sure one really noticed that it wasn’t the lace up shoes they all had, they probably neither cared or thought it mattered.  Eventually I realized that I actually liked not having the exact same shoes as every one else.  I was similar enough to still be trendy without blending in so much that I lost my individuality.  At 12 years old I didn’t verbally acknowledge that, but it was definitely part of my thinking.

Now I embrace the flair of not being part of the crowd, of standing out, of finding my own beat.  To pursue a unique thought, style or opinion based upon fact and truth is much more rewarding.

Many adult people are still not comfortable standing out, preferring the anoniminity of being one of the “sheep”.  When you call yourself a christ follower and you pursue the sameness of the world though you are putting aside a critical element of your idenity.  You are not called to love Christ and then be like everyone else.

Carve out your own identity in Christ.  Don’t base everything you think or feel upon what a person tells you, follow what God decrees.  Open up your bible and let God talk to you.  Let Him dicate your opinions, desires, dreams, and creative pursuits.

If you are a Christ follower who is waiting for your friends to tell you how to behave, how to dress, how to speak – you’re going to lose the part of your existence.

I see so many people who copy and follow.  Who decide that if a friend is doing something then they will copy them.  If they hear of someone who wants to purchase a certain item, they rush out to do it.  It’s confusing when we’ve moved out of the teenage years to have some adults acting this way.

All I think is that these people haven’t learned the true gift of what the Holy Spirit has for them.  The Holy Spirit indwells us in unique ways.  While others may share your gifts, or hopes, or dreams, or loves that doesn’t prevent you from being unique.  God creates every person with a purpose, with a divine design and doesn’t want to have an earthly amy of defenders who blend into each other.

If you are so afraid to stand alone, it might be time to figure out why.  You’ve likely not surrended something to God.  You likely have some forgiveness to deal with your life. Ask him to dwell in you, and you will see the wonder of who he created you to be.

As soon as you feel free in Him, you’ll be free to stand out in a crowd.

one moment… — December 25, 2011

one moment…


Today is a day where for one moment, on one day this world collectively seems to unite.

It doesn’t matter where you are, what you look like, what colour your skin is, what religion on you believe in, or what you think policitcally.  Today is a day where we can breathe a collective sigh of relief.

As the year draws to a close we gather together.  We embrace family, friends, memories, and acquantainces new and old.

It’s hard to not enjoy the warmth at this time.  Amid the busy shopping, the frantic scramble to clean houses and ready food…there is a joy that drives us and feeds us and encourages us to love the day.

Today, whatever it is that you carry in your heart negatively, lay it to rest.  Push it aside.  Decide to love.  Decide to hold the hands of your neighbour, walk with the world in celebrating the season.

Celebrate Christmas, remember Jesus, and love the people of the world with abandon.

Fairy Lights – day 27 — November 27, 2010

Fairy Lights – day 27


I feel extremely festive today!  🙂  Sang carols a lot today.  🙂  oh my heart is happy.

I wanted to get a photo of the lights on the tree, and was hoping to create lots of glare from the lights in my photo, to get a ‘starry’ look.  So I was shooting and shooting and changing settings and just getting perfect light shots with not enough noise to get glare-y.  The battery began to die, and since it was 11pm, so did time, then I move my angle AGAIN…and got it!  right before the battery breathed it’s last!  🙂  YAY.

So here are my glare-y fairy lights (that’s what us English folk call them):

Please follow along with the other bloggers taking part in the photo challenge:

http://carolkerfootphotography.com/blog/ – Carol Kerfoot

http://www.matthewahawkins.com/blog/ – Matthew Hawkins

www.jordanbrennaninc.com – Jordan Brennan

http://wesleyhawkins.wordpress.com – Welsey Hawkins

www.narwhalic.com – Carter McNaught

http://crazylittleadventures.blogspot.com – Erin Enns

http://www.ryantoyota.com/ – Ryan Toyota

http://shaunyoung.ca – Shaun Young

http://funkymomma-funkybaby.blogspot.com/ – Sarah Funk
http://www.flickr.com/photos/silverlamb/

http://www.kylehislop.com/Blog.php – Kyle Hislop

http://jillybeantotherescue.blogspot.com – Jillian Fraser

Daily Reading Nov. 4/10 Numbers 8- 10, Mark 5:1-20 — November 4, 2010

Daily Reading Nov. 4/10 Numbers 8- 10, Mark 5:1-20


“And Jesus said “No, go home to your family, and tell them everything the Lord has done for you and how merciful he has been”  Mark 5:19

Things happen by the grace and power of God in my life.  And sometimes I forget to tell people in my life, my home, my friends of what He has done for me.  There are times when I want to take the credit for it, when I want to think that I did something, that I made a difference.  I forget to acknowledge that it was God who did this for me, and through me.  There is that contrast pull of our own personal gratification and that of glorifying the Lord, yet through Him all things are possible, and with Him all good things are done.

As soon as I start taking credit though for the things that I shouldn’t be, I am quickly humbled to realize that my selfish pride and spirit are affecting my community with God.  At those moments I am reminded to step back and life up His name, and praise Him for all that He has done for me and others.

Prayer: To keep my eyes open to see how God moves.  Live in love and surround myself with who is.  Let God direct to the full ability of His plan, and not be victim on my own selfish heart.

Daily Reading Nov. 3/10 Numbers 7, Mark 4:21-41 — November 3, 2010

Daily Reading Nov. 3/10 Numbers 7, Mark 4:21-41


“Then Jesus asked them ‘would anyone light a lamp and then put it under a basket or under a bed?  Of course not!  A lamp is placed on a stand where its light will shine”  Mark 4:21

God puts a light in all of us but so many people are afraid to let their light shine.  It gets hidden under daily life, fears and rejections.  We get drawn down into despair by the darkness and don’t feel good enough any longer.  Yet, the one thing that we really need is to let the light that God extends to fill us.  When light enters us and we allow it to fully open in our hearts, we shine so bright as to push all the darkness away.

Praying to ask for the darkness to be kept at bay is the wrong way.  Ask God to fill you with His light, ask Him to fill the places you reside with HIS light.  Once you are filled with the light, the darkness has no chance to get in because His light banishes all darkness.

I have watched some people this week fall into the darkness of despair, losing hope…and I am so sad about this, my heart aches for them.  I have moments where I can see that I could be swept away in darkness, yet I know that the only way to avoid it is to pray with God and to God.  I worship Him with all that I am and all that I have, this way the light that He has surrounds and fills me, giving me the strength the continue and rise up to be His child.

Prayer:  That today, and tomorrow as I go out into the world, to be filled with His light.  To show others how God can light up a life.  To be a living testimony to who God is.

Daily Reading Nov. 2/10 Numbers 5, 6 Mark 4:1-20 — November 2, 2010

Daily Reading Nov. 2/10 Numbers 5, 6 Mark 4:1-20


These two chapters of Numbers really seem a little outdated to our society upon just reading them.  A husband is allowed to drag his wife before priests if he believes she is having an affair, regardless of whether she is caught, suspicion is enough but there is no mention or provision for what a woman can do if she suspects her husband.  Yet, as I thought about it, I see that God wants us to be free of that sin, and also wants men to be strong enough to NOT cheat on his wife.  As the leader of the household, a man has much more honour to maintain, and in today’s world this still applies so much.  A husband should try to be as blameless as possible, to lead his family with courage and dignity in the ways of the world, and exhibit a path as free of sin as possible.  And if he were to commit adultery too, well he is just as much tried as a woman would be and maybe even more.

“The seed that fell on the footpath represents those who hear the message, only to have Satan come at once and take it away”  Mark 4:15

“And the seed that fell on good soil represents those who hear and accept God’s word and produce a harvest of thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times as much as had been planted”  Mark 4:20

The two verses above spoke right into me at this moment.  I am sad when I see people who so much need the word of God, and the love of God in their lives yet before they can commit themselves the enemy comes along with lures of sin and pleasures that will only ever bring short-term, fleeting happiness.  How my heart cries out to those who ensure such pains…and knowing how much I had been in the same place for so long.  I pray and pray and pray for them to become good soil one day to heard the words and connect the dots to be a person that God has planned for them.  How I pray for them to achieve the glory of eternity.

Prayer:  My prayer today really coincides with the prayer in Numbers 6:24-26

“May the Lord bless you and protect you

May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you

May the Lord show you His favour and give you His peace”

Daily Reading Nov. 1/10 Numbers 3,4 Mark 3:22-35 — November 1, 2010

Daily Reading Nov. 1/10 Numbers 3,4 Mark 3:22-35


“when their names were recorded, as the Lord had commanded through Moses, each man was assigned his task and told what to carry”  Numbers 4:49a

I think this is likely a lot like how God sees us all.  We each have something to do, a task for his glory. And while he will still accomplish his mission, with us being involved we get to that place with more love and joy if we carry things we are meant to carry.  The stuff that isn’t our task we have to let go of.

“And if Satan is divided and fights against himself, how can he stand? he would never survive.  Let me illustrate this further.  Who is powerful enough to enter the house of a strong man like Satan and plunder his goods?  Only someone even stronger – someone who could tie him up and then plunder his house” Mark 3:26-27

Spiritual warfare is everywhere, I am seeing the divides along the paths.  God is stronger, God is more powerful…and I am choosing that no matter what situation or place I find myself in, I will choose GOD and God’s way, God’s example and his love for everything that I face.

Prayer:  Renew my spirit each day Lord.  Protect me from the disease of satan.  Keep my eyes open to discern those who want to hurt, and those I cannot trust.

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